I just realized.....

As Todd and i were talking today about moving to Lubbock and what neighborhood we wanted to live in and what not and what needs to be done to get Christopher in Pre-K, I realized that I don't have a baby anymore!!! He is his own little person. Not that I haven't noticed it before now, trust me - he has a mind of his own and will do things HIS way or it's the highway (he gets that from me, I hate to admit!). It is just that he is going to go to SCHOOL this fall!!!! The 4 (almost 5) years he has been in our lives, seems to have just flown by and I think I have taken it for granted. You would think that after losing a baby when he was 6 months old, I wouldn't. And I didn't when Christopher was 6, 8, 10 and 12 months old. But after he started walking and talking (which, by the way, he does not have an "Off" button!) things just started going full speed ahead! We got a Wal-Mart circular in the mail the other day and it hit me RIGHT then - we have to buy school supplies!!!!!!!!!! I am not ready for this. It is not like dropping him off at daycare. I just don't know how to explain it. My baby is growing up and I don't particularly like it. When did he get old enough to start school?! Things were so much easier when all we had to deal with were diapers, bottles and a feeding schedule....
What is it going to be like when he graduates from high school?? I shudder to think..... But, as Scarlett O'Hara said in one of my favorite movies: "I'll think about that tomorrow." and I will, but first I have to think about sending him to Pre-K!!!!!

patience - i have none!

i hate moving. i mean i absolutely HATE moving!!!! i told todd that when we bought this house in the 'shoe that we weren't going to move every again. i had to eat my words. i hate being wrong, too. but, if we knew then what we know now, we wouldn't be in this predicament. so, four of the seven days a week, i am home in the 'shoe with christopher while todd goes to his new job in the Hub City and stays with relatives until we can sell our house/buy a house. at first i thought it was putting a strain on our marriage, but now, i realize i cherish the time i get to spend with him when he is here on his days off (not to mention that he gets to deal with christopher instead of me!!!)
i am not a patient person, so selling houses is not for me, especially in a town where there are 100 (give or take a few!) houses for sale at the same time and when new residents are coming in not wanting to buy but to rent. buying a house isn't easy either. the backyard is too small. the bathrooms are horrible. there is no garage. there is no fireplace. the neighborhood is not the greatest. i am too picky, but i figure if i am willing to spend bookoos of money on a house, i have the right to be picky. people tell me the right person will come along and buy our house and then in turn we will find the perfect house in the Hub City for us. any chance of that happening like, tomorrow?

First blog

Ok - this is my first blog. Not too sure about it. Since I don't keep a journal anymore and it has been YEARS since I have, thought I would give this a try. Don't know how long it will be kept or how often I will blog.
Our son and I are at home alone while my husband is out of town for a couple of more days for a school and won't be home until late Thursday. We haven't been apart this long since, well, never. Ever since we met we have been together. The first time I slept away from him was the night before our wedding. He was there in the hospital for both of the boys' births - never left my side. I hate not having him in the same town. But I will definitely be glad when he comes home!!!
We spent three days in Lubbock with my sister so we wouldn't have to spend the entire time Todd is away by ourselves, even with my mom in the same town. I would give ANYTHING to move back to Lubbock. I had no idea that my little hometown could be such hell to work for. Everything is so damn political and I hate that. Not to mention that there is NOTHING to do here. We have to drive for at least 30 minutes if we want to go to a mall, see a movie, go to Wal-Mart, have a decent meal or buy scrapbook stuff. At least in Lubbock we have our choices of movie theaters, restaurants, and scrapbook stores. besides, all of my friends are there. I miss that. A LOT! I didn't realize it until this weekend when we were there.